Am Back & Blue, naturaly!

For those caring/wondering, YES, I did arrive safely back from Canada last Thursday.
However, the holiday left me, far more drained & tired than any previous vacation has yet.
And, saying 'Good-Bye' to Little Buddy, after our longest ever period of purely 'one to one' 24 hours a day contact, was particularly distressful.
I confess, I foolishly wept intermittently all the flight home; so, personally upsetting was leaving my 'Love' to return to my empty shell of an existence here; especially knowing it's always going to be that way.
True, there just maybe, more stolen moments ahead, who knows?
Still, that was & is still small comfort, as it's not a certainty.
When we are together, we live for the moment & do; and recall with fond nostalgia other happy times shared.
But, we can never make future plans & no matter how hard I try to contain my feelings re this, I fail miserably.
I was therefore, literally shaking with emotional & physical exhaustion by the time I reached Dreamingspires & home.
I wearily, crawled to the sanctuary of my bed & stayed there in an attempt to recoup.

On Friday, it had been long planned, that I join Molly & Taffy and friends to participate in the WELTAF weekend of walks in Cheshire, but I was just too deflated & despondent to do so.
Since then, have slept in late, very late & when awake, drowned my sorrows in my duty-free bottle of Bacardi rum, not wanting to communicate by any means with anyone except LB, who has called each evening since I returned to check on my well being!

Okay, I'm not proud of it, but I've been feeling exceedingly sorry for myself & depressed beyond words.

Consequently, I quite simply, haven't had the heart to Blog that I was back till now.

Even, wondered if I wanted to continue posting @ all, as doing so, about my proposed Canadian trip cast a shadow over it!!!

However, as the saying, often seen quoted on the Internet, rings all too true for me...
"I love my laptop, because my friends live there!"
I will write a little of my travels over the next few days.

And, try to catch up with what's happened in my said friends lives during my absence from Blogland.

To those worried by my prolonged silence - my apologies!